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Throwback Thursday [20140508|09:40]
Mad Scientess Jane Expat
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Death Valley, California, USA. 2003.



I note that this photo was taken when my self esteem was pretty low. I'd finished my PhD, was doing my first postdoc and was not really sure what to do with my life. I was coming to the conclusion that academia was not for me, but all the alternatives scared the poop out of me. So I made myself look like the cartoon/superhero character I wanted to be but didn't feel like I actually could be.

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[User Picture]From: againstathorn
2014-05-08 10:59 (UTC)
"So I made myself look like the cartoon/superhero character I wanted to be but didn't feel like I actually could be."

I like the straight-forwardness of this statement. I think a lot of people, including myself, have done this during indecisive periods.
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[User Picture]From: pax_athena
2014-05-08 14:18 (UTC)
Yes, very much this.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:26 (UTC)
Although I'm sad that we all have had to suffer, I'm honoured to be in such good company.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:29 (UTC)
It's a sort of armour, I feel. Not just to deflect the slings and arrows from outside, but to hold the wobbly bits in.
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[User Picture]From: painted_dreams
2014-05-08 13:32 (UTC)
The fact that you finished a PhD is heroic in and of itself. With all that you have accomplished so far in your life, you'd definitely make a good super hero for little girls everywhere.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:25 (UTC)
It's sometimes difficult to remember that finishing a PhD is such a feat. I spend my days surrounded by them, and it's quite easy to forget that when you exist in such a rarefied atmosphere.
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[User Picture]From: purplecthulhu
2014-05-10 14:22 (UTC)
This! I often feel inadequate looking at the people around me, then try to remember we're in one of the best universities in the world and actually are surrounded by world leaders in their fields.

And there may also be a tendency for post-big-project depression, and there's very little bigger than a PhD when you do it.
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[User Picture]From: cosmiccircus
2014-05-09 02:19 (UTC)
It's ironic that you say your self esteem was pretty low, because you're so hot in this photo!
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:24 (UTC)
I was also pretty physically strong when this photo was taken, as I was rock-climbing a few times a week. >.<
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[User Picture]From: mysterysquid
2014-05-09 10:15 (UTC)
Well it's a good look. :)

And for the record, I owned a trenchcoat BEFORE I read Hellblazer. :P
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:22 (UTC)
I miss that look sometimes. I don't think dreads would go down well at my work though.

*high-fives* on your pre-hipster hipness. :P
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[User Picture]From: mysterysquid
2014-05-09 10:17 (UTC)
PS - Bonus points for Orbital. ;)
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2014-05-09 19:05 (UTC)
\o/ Ahh, memories of being completely lost in music on the dancefloor.
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[User Picture]From: lowermeadow
2014-05-10 02:38 (UTC)
What a great photo you really look good and you know you can be all that you can be! Go for It! My favorite Motto!
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