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Beauty [20060921|00:52]
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I look the wrong way on the train platform to see the contrails left by jets burning incandescently in the dawn sky. I look for so long that other commuters waiting on the platform turn their heads to see what I am staring at. Finding nothing unusual, they turn their puzzled gazes back to me. I look at a beautiful boy perched on a wall next to the barbed wire, sipping a cup of coffee and flicking his ashes over the other side. I look at the steam rising off the countryside slipping past as the sun hits the dewy grass. I look at the neck of a woman with her hair pinned up and her head bent over a book. I look at three balding men on a bench, none of whom know each other, running their hands absentmindedly over their heads in the same ruminating way. I see these things and I feel momentarily paralyzed by their beauty. The feeling shoots down into me and I think, oh. I am unable to move my hands. In that moment I am grateful to be alive. It is enough.
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[User Picture]From: nimoloth
2006-09-21 01:12 (UTC)
So much beauty like that just slips right past most people and they don't even realise.
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[User Picture]From: seismic
2006-09-21 01:29 (UTC)
Yes.
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[User Picture]From: greengrower
2006-09-21 04:04 (UTC)
What a beautiful capture of a full moment of awareness. Life is for living to have moments like that. Among other things.
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[User Picture]From: danaid_luv
2006-09-21 20:59 (UTC)
Those *aware* moments have all but gone away anymore--too da*rned hard juggling a squirmer, a potential 'dasher', & all accoutrements necessary for daily life. But in those rare, quiet moments when I find myself alone, I'm almost overwhelmed by the mundane yet beautiful things that happen all around me. Thanks for documenting a 'moment' for us. It was lovely.
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[User Picture]From: comfortslut
2006-09-22 00:14 (UTC)
I've had maybe 4 or 5 such moments in my life, where I was suddenly so present and awake that the beauty around me startled me into tears. So wonderful and delicious and reminds us of what a privilege it is to simply be.

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