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The confessional is open [20050531|15:23]
Mad Scientess Jane Expat
I'm bored and waiting for feedback on the paper draft. If there's something you want to get off your chest, talk to me. Anonymous commenting is unscreened, IP logging is off.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 18:16 (UTC)
Wow. Someone likes to live dangerously.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:06 (UTC)
I keep trying to lose weight, but I'm deep down pretty sure I'm going to be fat forever, and just keep getting fatter until they have to cart me around in a forklift.

Also, I think I'm an alcoholic. These two problems continually aggravate each other.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 00:27 (UTC)
You've probably had to endure all the well-meaning advice in the universe, so I'll just say fuck it, come on over for cookies, rum and Playstation.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:15 (UTC)
I'm really sick of my current situation. I'm 24, I live with my parents, I have no money, I'm still in college, and I feel like I'll never get anywhere. I'm very unmotivated to do anything or move anywhere from my current life, even though I know it sucks. I feel like I'll be stuck here forever. My family thinks I'm a loser who will remain an immature jerk forever... I'm the family joke. I'm fat, and I feel ugly all the time, like everyone is staring at me, secretly disgusted. I've stopped caring about my appearance. Luckily I don't have any other addictions, besides food... no alcohol or drugs, etc. That's the one good thing I have going for me. I'm quite intelligent, and I don't think anyone realizes how intelligent I am. I'm not depressed, I'm just lazy. I geberally like myself, and I love my family and friends, but I have this horrible malaise that infiltrates my life, dspite my intelligence.

Anonymous commenting rocks.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 18:14 (UTC)
I think it's probable that people do understand that you're intelligent. What's more difficult to understand is why someone with that gift wouldn't apply it to change an undesirable, self-inflicted situation. Intelligence and ambition are not inherently linked, but most people expect them to be, expecially if they feel that someone else is more gifted than they are in a particular way. I'm not saying this is necessarily a fair expectation, but I suspect that's the one you're up against.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:19 (UTC)
i feel judged by everyone,
probably because im judging myself-
i feel guilty and impossible
and very un interesting.
yet, i have no interest in getting better.


sometimes.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 18:19 (UTC)
Ah, apathy. It would attack you, but it can't be bothered, so it just waits around until you happen to step on it. Bastard.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:27 (UTC)
I have a friend who breeds poodles. I wish I could breed poodles.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-05-31 23:59 (UTC)
One-up 'em and breed cockapoos!

Heh. Cockapoos.
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[User Picture]From: wurlitzerprized
2005-05-31 23:30 (UTC)
i'm angry, horny, and frustrated.
ppppffffffllllllltttttt.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:32 (UTC)
Dude, me too. I have no privacy, no vibrator and my boyfriend is inaccessible.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:47 (UTC)
I'm using a friend for sexual relief, but only kind of. He's the only person in the world I can feel an attraction to, right now. Otherwise I have no sex drive. Problem is he has a girlfriend. Theoretically they have an arrangement, but we also have a history and it's probably bad that we're doing this. We're going to stop, or possibly have already stopped. It's all very weird.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 00:04 (UTC)
Ouch. That sounds quite painful. Especially since you probably can't really talk about it much. I hope stopping helps.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-05-31 23:58 (UTC)
Every time I think I have my lonliness under control, it pops back up. I don't even remember what it feels like to be touched. And yet the thought of someone touching me fills me with a murderous rage.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 00:48 (UTC)
Something tells me that proferring internet hugs is not the appropriate response to this.

Instead I will hope that you can find someone you can trust enough to let down those barriers.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 00:06 (UTC)
I am wildly, wildly insecure about my current relationship, even though it's the best I've had.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 00:33 (UTC)
I think there's an element of insecurity in almost any relationship that stays consistently rewarding for a long time. Sort of like, "Whoa, what did I do to deserve this?!"
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 00:24 (UTC)
I see a lot of people in bad situations but unwilling to take the obvious steps to resolve them. I think they're kinda pathetic, but that makes me feel like a bad person. Woe!
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 00:32 (UTC)
See! Even rereading this makes me feel like scum.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 01:00 (UTC)
i'm tired of people coming to me for advice, and so however inadvertantly making me a bit responsible for them, a bit given the job of taking care of them, making me some kind of teacher. but i can't turn them away, because they might have no one else to go to, and it doesn't cost me THAT much.
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 01:06 (UTC)
The thing that really pisses me off about people who ask for advice, is that they rarely listen and then you have to be there for them when they fuck up, even though they didn't do what they should have. Boo on them.
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[User Picture]From: chibaraki
2005-06-01 01:22 (UTC)
I cut my hair and started wearing makeup because I wanted to impress boys.

It's not working. I'm positive that this is because I am fat. On some level I am aware that it is also because I am supershy and have shit for self-esteem, but it's easier to blame it on the fat because I can diet for that.

Somehow saying so anonymously wouldn't be cathartic enough, though.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2005-06-01 23:31 (UTC)
Ironic, because you succeed constantly.

(I'm still marveling over what you did for that doctoral student. Profs like you give me hope for academia.)
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 05:30 (UTC)

Jellical

This confessional is the coolest thing I've come across since I had that dream the other night with the giant vine bridges and the armored chopper-monsters. It's sort of like an anti-Zumanity without the dancing and velvet couches.

My fallen confession? You're better than Cats (http://www.catbeing.com/tic_tickets.html).

Well, okay. I've never actually seen Cats, but if I had seen it- or do someday- I'm sure I would have found, eventually- or shall find- that you're smarter, hawter, and more righteously cool, because hey, like- I already knew that. There are some things you just don't need to see some stupid musical about someone's rump-tweezer to figure out.

Do you know your cats?
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-06-01 05:42 (UTC)

I feel fucking great lately!
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[User Picture]From: grumpkins
2005-06-01 07:11 (UTC)
I do too! Kinda...sorta...maybe a little. No, I don't think I do so much.
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