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Mad Scientess Jane Expat
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Vintage 4

Many of you will have learnt this already, via FB, Twitter, Flickr or maybe even in meatspace. But just in case there’s anyone out there who didn’t know yet: I’m four months pregnant.

I’ve been oddly reluctant to post publicly about it in my journal. Maybe it’s because people are more likely to be nasty to others when shielded by the anonymity afforded by the internet. Maybe it’s because I’ve always felt ambivalent about having children, and I feel somewhat guilty that I still have that ambivalence, despite having committed to the irrevocable decision to have one myself. Maybe it’s because I don’t want my identity to be subsumed in becoming a delivery vehicle for a new human. Maybe it’s because while I’m happy to camhoor my cats (who don’t understand the internet and never will) and myself shamelessly, I don’t necessarily want to do it to a new human (who may eventually understand the internet and be horrified).

I’m dubious about bringing a person into a world struggling with climate change, resource depletion, endemic racism and sexism, and generally the ease with which humans can be horrible to one another. I guess all I can do is try to equip my passenger with the tools to help cope with these things. We’ll start with completing gestation. Oh, and while I’m glad to be having a child, I’m also glad that I was able to exercise control over my reproductive ability until I felt I was in a position to provide adequate support for one. May we one day live in world where every woman has the means to do this.

Here are Telstar’s thoughts on the forthcoming arrival.



You could interpret this as the cat version of “Congratulations!”, but I think it’s more likely to be, “You mean I can’t eat it? Boooorrrrring.”
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[User Picture]From: melissa_maples
2012-05-29 13:37 (UTC)
my cats (who don’t understand the internet and never will)

I'm not so sure. I think they may have gone out and earned advanced degrees without our knowledge.

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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:25 (UTC)
I might have believed that of Sputnik, but Telstar doesn't have the attention span for it. I stuffed a worming pill down his throat the other day, which would have thrown any normal cat into a sulk for at least a couple of hours. He glared at me briefly and then went right back to rubbing my leg and mewing for gooshy food.
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[User Picture]From: cosmiccircus
2012-05-29 16:36 (UTC)
He can't eat it, but he can at least play with it and anything that falls on the floor from it, is probably edible!
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:25 (UTC)
Oh, he'll be quite pleased with Passenger for the first few years of life, then!
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[User Picture]From: jixel
2012-05-29 18:13 (UTC)
OMG i had no idea! wow congrats! please don't worry, you know once your kid is born you will be omg why was i ever worried about this, it's awesome. you will be an amazing mom!
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:29 (UTC)
I hope you're right on both counts! Thank you.
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[User Picture]From: alice_mccoy
2012-05-29 19:21 (UTC)
Pretty kitty and proof that tuna-breath does not affect digital image capturing.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:30 (UTC)
I had a cold when I took the photo, so I couldn't smell the kitty-breath. Probably an advantage!
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[User Picture]From: anthrokeight
2012-05-29 21:09 (UTC)
Good lord, you are gorgeous. Which is what I say every time I see your photo. But you are one of those ladies who makes being knocked up look elegant and foxy. Many (most) women look radiant, but not all of them look foxy.

Also, ambivalence. I think it's a healthy way to feel. You, me, we, everyone, including impending BabyNanila are immeasurably precious and infinitesimally negligible. (Which I expect you know, of course, being a Space Scientist.) Putting a new person into that reality is a tricky business.

Fortunately, I also expect you and your hug will do swimmingly at it, so it's all good.

The cat, however, looks like he thinks he is the emperor of all creation, which I expect (again) he probably is.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:35 (UTC)
*shuffles feet* Well, thank you. The front of me, it has suddenly become very...er...womanly in shape. Not that it wasn't before, it's just that now I look at those Mother Earth figurines and think, yep! That's me! WHOA.

Every time I look at that photo of Telstar, I start giggling because of the whiskers and the eyebrows going everywhere.
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From: envoy
2012-05-30 05:48 (UTC)
Congratulations!

October babies are cool :)
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:31 (UTC)
Thanks!

I would love for Passenger to arrive on 31 October. That would just be awesome. ;D
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[User Picture]From: painted_dreams
2012-06-03 05:15 (UTC)
Halloween is a terrific birthday (as it is mine).
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[User Picture]From: bryangb
2012-05-30 12:25 (UTC)
Congratulations!! You'll do fine, I'm sure - and for all its problems, it is still an endlessly fascinating and wonderful world to grow up in.
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:38 (UTC)
it is still an endlessly fascinating and wonderful world to grow up in.

This is true! I must remember it. Also, get some more lovely posters of it to put in the nursery. We have satellite images of the world at night and a periodic table already, as well as swag collected from various conferences. But perhaps a few more biology-related ones are in order...
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[User Picture]From: hafnir
2012-05-31 04:30 (UTC)
Big congrats, and I'm very jealous! :)
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[User Picture]From: nanila
2012-05-31 13:41 (UTC)
Thank you!
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[User Picture]From: feylike
2012-05-31 14:53 (UTC)
congratulations! with all your intelligence and accomplishments, i wouldn't worry about your identity being subsumed into being a delivery vehicle for a new human; i see it more like being one of most important participants in the act of creating a new human -- an act that does not end at birth. i think you'll be a wonderful mother
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From: pbristow
2012-06-02 12:26 (UTC)
Congratulations, Bump! You made an excellent choice of vessel for your first ever voyage. [SALUTE] =:o}


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[User Picture]From: painted_dreams
2012-06-03 05:14 (UTC)
Congratulations! I've always had similar feelings about bringing a child into the world without having adequate support. In the course of my life I've always known that if I were to have a child I would need to be in the position to do so. Not just monetarily but emotionally and mentally as well. If I ever do have a child or two (mostly leaning toward the one), I know that I'd have to be able to prepare them for the good and the bad in the world.
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